Well for those of you that don't know I didn't get the job. I'm really okay with it and am actually not that sad. What I'm really upset about is having to take back all of the beautiful clothes I had bought in anticipation of starting a new career. Well, I didn't actually take all of the clothes back, I keep the pants and a couple of sweaters. I mean you can't take back pants that actually fit and make your butt look smaller now can you. In an effort to give Matt some time off since he so wonderfully works two jobs to keep our finances afloat I will be looking for a waitressing job since I can probably find one quickly and can make the most money in the least amount of hours. I also plan on selling hand knit baby stuff in ebay so keep an eye out.

Life is good here and things are going really well. The kids are getting bigger and ornrier everyday. Riley fussed and fussed the other day until Matt starting getting onto Alexis. Then he laughed and laughed. What an ornry kid at not even three months old. Alexis is getting sassier and sassier everyday. she is so much fun and so trying all at the same time. They are the cutest kids though and I love them more everyday.

I know that God had a hand in showing what I thought was really important through this whole job thing. While the extra money would be great it will never replace this tim with my kids as they grow bigger and do more and more amazing things every second. What a wonderful Father we have who takes care of us through all things. Praise God for his great insight and power.

Random Thought

Pillsbury is advertising cookies with mini Hershey Kisses in them, I always thought that was called a chocolate chip.

Yesterday

To get this out of the way: the interview went well and I should know more in a few weeks.

As a parent you will find that there are times when you should laugh at what your child is doing and times when you shouldn't. The hard part is not figuring out the difference between the two, that's actually really easy. The hard part is to actually not laugh when you shouldn't.

I am not very good at this. In fact I'm terrible at it. It's one thing when your brother is disciplining his kids and you laugh, but when you are disciplining your own and you laugh it's entirely different.

Let us take last night at dinner for example. We were trying to get Alexis to eat her the rest of her green beans. She had actually eaten quite a bit but we wanted her to try and finish what was on her plate. Matt and I went back and forth with her for a few minutes but nothing was coming of the argument. Then, out of the blue, she picks up her plate and dumps what was left of her dinner right into the middle of my empty plate and declared the uneaten green beans as "Mommy's geen beans". It was the funniest thing.

Now I mean, really, what was I supposed to do? Well, I did what any parent would do. I laughed. I laughed really hard and so did Matt. We had no choice. We have no idea where she got the idea to dump her food onto someone else's plate, we have certainly never done that before, but she figured it out. I know as a good parent who is trying my best to teach her good manners I should have looked her sternly in the eyes and told her it was wrong to do but I just couldn't. She was so proud of herself for finding a way to empty her plate and it was very creative for a two year old.

I'm sure next time it won't be so cute when she does it. Yes, I'm sure there will be a next time. I just hope with all hope I won't laugh again because if I do there will be no turning back. To slip up once is okay but to do it twice is an open invitation.

Tomorrow

For those of you that don't know I have an interview tomorrow with MassMutual. The position will be similar to the one I held at PHS in Wichita. Obviously things are different now when I consider taking a job. Before I only had one child and a fantastic child care situation. This time I have two kids and am not completely sure who will watch the kids when Matt is at work.

I feel excitement and guilt with the whole process. I know that many a well adjusted child has gone to day care and survived. I was one of them. I know that Matt will do a great job when he is here. He has already proven that with Alexis. However, I feel sad that I won't be with the kids all the time while I also feel happy that I will get some time away. I feel very conflicted.

Chris, my wonderful mother-in-law, gave me great advice and reminded me that the choice either way is not permanent and I can always change my mind. Those words really eased my mind. They didn't take the feelings away but they did ease my mind.

I know that God is always watching over me and my decisions. I have prayed to Him that He will reveal the answer to me. I know that He will. If are reading this before I go, pray that everything goes well. If you are reading this after, please pray that everything will work for the good of my family. God will take care and I will be okay, which ever decision is made.

Happy Halloween

We had a great night of trick-or-treeating last night with this motley crew of kids from the station. Lexi thought it was fantastics to get treats in her bag whenever she said tic-or-teet. Her favorite thing that she got was a glow stick from one of the other kids. It was a ton of fun and we can't wait till next year.

P.S. - Today is my mom's birthday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM!!!!!! We love you!