For those of you that don't know I have an interview tomorrow with MassMutual. The position will be similar to the one I held at PHS in Wichita. Obviously things are different now when I consider taking a job. Before I only had one child and a fantastic child care situation. This time I have two kids and am not completely sure who will watch the kids when Matt is at work.
I feel excitement and guilt with the whole process. I know that many a well adjusted child has gone to day care and survived. I was one of them. I know that Matt will do a great job when he is here. He has already proven that with Alexis. However, I feel sad that I won't be with the kids all the time while I also feel happy that I will get some time away. I feel very conflicted.
Chris, my wonderful mother-in-law, gave me great advice and reminded me that the choice either way is not permanent and I can always change my mind. Those words really eased my mind. They didn't take the feelings away but they did ease my mind.
I know that God is always watching over me and my decisions. I have prayed to Him that He will reveal the answer to me. I know that He will. If are reading this before I go, pray that everything goes well. If you are reading this after, please pray that everything will work for the good of my family. God will take care and I will be okay, which ever decision is made.
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you are definitely in our prayers. we love you, and will ask God for whatever is best for your family. (though if you got a glamorous, high-paying job that enabled you to come here sooner that would be awesome, but that's selfish!)
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